New Year, New Me (I guess)

Not sure what 2014 holds for me.

But I have BIG plans.

Just did a vision board journal for 2014 and I plan to make this a year that stands out.

In Dec 2013, I did a few housekeeping things, which included determining whether my ex husband wanted to try again.

He basically told me he wanted to get himself together first and for us to revisit this in a few months.

 I took that as a "No"

I'm not going to waste my time this year on people who don't want to waste their time with me.

I am going to try to be a better friend.

Work on my health.

Work on my financial fitness

And basically work on my mental health which has been in dire straits over the last few years.

This year is about me.

I am not going to worry about getting a man, or having a baby or proving something to someone or any of the other things that crossed my mind that weren't for my benefit.

My three year plan includes finding a mate, but year number 1 is to get myself together and to be the woman the man I want, would want.

So wish me luck.

Quotable Sunday - Mental Illness

 

 

Telling someone with mental illness to

"pull themselves together" is just as

 helpful as

  telling someone with AIDS to "just snap

out of it"

 

 

 

Decide You Are Beautiful

Eff Your Body Standards!!

I'm Fat? Really, I Didn't Realize - Body Shaming In The Form of "Caring"

When I gained weight, and started wearing a size 18/20, I knew I was wearing an 18/20 but didn't really care. I still wanted to look good, so I just bought new clothes that looked good on my new body.

When I decided one day I wanted to go to the gym, for no other reason that to flatten my stomach (I wasn't thinking about my hips, thighs, but or arms, I just wanted a flatter stomach) people started commending me for "taking better care of myself.." For "Being Healthier" etc, etc.

All the sudden my confidence started to decrease. I started thinking "Oh my god, I really AM a fat slob." and "I really DON'T take care of myself." and of course "I am a bad person and totally unlovable because I'm fat and unhealthy..."

Mind you, my blood pressure, cholesterol, glucose levels have always been absolutely in perfect range. The only problem I've had is Hypo-thyrodism but that is actually a cause rather than an effect of weight gain (it can slow you metabolism). So to be completely honest, I wasn't really unhealthy.  The only unhealthy thing about me were the numbers I put on the scale.

#YOLO

Some people take YOLO to mean you should do all sorts of crazy stuff, like say what you want, and do what you want with your life. I actually take this to mean, you should be careful what you do or say because you only have one life and no do-overs.

What does YOLO mean to you?

I Pay For Both!

My Life's Mantra...So Far