Friday, August 30, 2013

Friday, August 23, 2013

Frustrate Me Friday - #34 People Who Let Their Dogs Approach Other Dogs Without Asking The Owner First

That is a dog fight waiting to happen!!
I have dogs, and although I personally think they are sweet and nice and well behaved, I can't guarantee how they will act or any other dog will act when approached.
I know their signals: Alarmed, Scared, Interested, Playful and on guard.
But YOU don't know their signals. Therefore why would you let your dog approach my dog without asking me first.

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Never Stronger

Today has taken a lot out of me.
For the first time since my stay I actually teared up. It was due to the mention of my trauma and the fact that I am afraid to delve into those memories.
Now, I didn't full on cry, but enough tears fell down my cheeks that I needed a tissue.
I quickly gathered myself and again regained the stoic exterior I have perfected since I got here. Not feeling.

But then i began to realize, by showing pain, trusting the process and showing I had weaknesses, I had actually never been stronger.

My home therapist tried to get me to process my trauma once. I'm not sure what happened but apparently it caused her to quickly reconsider and realize that I was DEFINITELY not at the right stage to begin processing.

But being in the hospital is probably the perfect place to begin processing. I am safe and  protected and surrounded by staff whose sole purpose is to help me get better. I won't be left alone with my thoughts or urges, which can be dangerous, because they do 15 minute checks.

So, I have a therapy appointment tomorrow with my onsite therapist. Basically just like I told my roommate, I will go in and say:

"Okay, I'm ready...Make me cry..."

Hopefully she will.

Have a good night.

Thanks for reading.

Jen L.

Wednesday, August 21, 2013

Being There...

You may. Or may not wonder where I've been lately. Well, I've been hospitalized with complex PTSD and severe depression.

Sunday, August 11, 2013

Saturday, August 10, 2013

Bachelorette Party - Purple Party Dress

One of my favorite things to do on Polyvore is to create an outfit and then try to recreate it.

If you recall, the most recent Polyvore set I did was "Purple Party Guest"

The inspiration behind this was that a good friend of mine was having her Bridal/Bachelorette party today, and the theme was N'awlins (New Orleans). The host asked for the guest to all wear purple.

About Concealers - From Someone Who Really Needed It

It has been recently going through the blogosphere the magic behind concealing makeup.

~In case you don't know what the difference between regular makeup and a concealer makeup is, well a concealer is a heavier version meant to completely cover, as opposed to makeup which is just mean to coat and enhance.~

Well, I had to put that magic to the test for a Bachelorette party I was attending today. I couldn't go with a gaping wound in the middle of my head. What gaping wound you ask?

Well, unfortunately, last night, the skin between eyes and on my lower forehead began to peel heavily. When I washed my face, the skin just all came off right before my eyes, and I was left with this:

Polyvore - Purple Party Guest

GB - Pre-Bachelorette Party Errands To Run

So this morning I woke up bright and early because I have quite a few errands I need to run before attending my friend S's bachelorette party (or rather bachelorette day considering it starts at 12 noon today and ends at 2 am tomorrow).

Polyvore - Hot As Ice

Hot As Ice

Polyvore - She's a Rainbow Dare

Polyvore - Window Shopping

Friday, August 9, 2013

Just Had To Brag: Shoes Harnesses * Updated*

Today in the mail I received my shoe harnesses from Dear Bearcat on Etsy.

They are GOR-GE-OUS aren't!!!

I couldn't wait to put them on and see what types of shoes they would be best with.

This is how they looked on the site

Tame The Wild Pink Beast

I ordered this dress from the straight size section of Asos.

It fit wonderfully except for one aspect it  looks longer in the picture than it is in real life.
It barely covered my bum.

Frustrate Me Friday: Annoyance #19 Republicans vs. Democrats

Republicans who think I only vote Democrat because I don't know any better. ( I respect your decision, so respect mine!)

Okay, for the longest time I didn't want to admit I was a democrat. I always considered myself to be one of those undecided voters that the candidates always covet.

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Honestly, What's So Special About BeauCoo?

Okay, honestly I am still trying to figure out what is so special about Beau Coo.

You know, the one that must be "paying" fashion bloggers to basically say how much they love the app and blah blah blah....

Well, after seeing this hype for about the 4th time, I finally decided to try it out myself...

Let's just say, I was frustrated.


What I Want Be Today: A School Counselor

So, yeah...I was riding the train, reading the newspaper when I saw an ad for a Graduate school that offered classes that would help you in becoming  a:

Beautiful Skirt - Crummy Weather

As I stated in my last post, I received my Demestik's New York skirt in the mail yesterday.

I wasn;t sure if I was going to wear it, but I couldn't resist.


Thumbs Up Thursday: Working Moms

Today's Thumbs Up Goes Out To Working Moms.

Polyvore - Hip Hop Preppy Chic

Polyvore: African Butterfy in the City

Gisela Ramirez: Redundant, But Worth It!

I know, I know... this Tee has been hyped to death. But it is such a great tee, it will NEVER get old.

I personally wouldn't have the balls to wear it since I have an 11 year old son who can read..
I can hear it now "Mom, what's F-Star-C-K Flattering mean??"


But, I commend whoever CAN and DOES sport this MARVELOUS statement on their chest like the Superwoman (or man) they are.

Kudos to Gisela Ramirez, the Australian designer whose clothes say F*ck it, in more ways than one...

She is currently holding a "Nothing over $40" sale. Unfortunately, the shirt is sold out, but there is still some other great pieces left. Check her out... click her name above to go to her website..

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

"Oh My Gawd, Oh My Gawd, Oh My Gawd!"

Demestiks New York by Reuben Reuel - What can I say... But FABULOUS!!

I ordered the below two skirts from him and they came in the mail today!! (Oh My Gawd!! - Hyperventilating and Fanning self).. They are GORGEOUS aren't they?

Shiny Like A Star In The Galaxy - Does That Even Make Sense?

Today was another bus and train day.

I am beginning to not loathe the bus as much as I used to.

My father joked that as long as I didn't take the bus going down 7th street (aka Georgia Ave) I should be fine. (Shout out to DC Public Transportation!!)

Monday, August 5, 2013

I Am Not A Model - Nor Do I Want To Be

This is a lazy post where I basically critique all of  my pictures for no other reason than to have something to write in between them.

"Am I A Hoarder?" - A Question I Ask Myself Almost Daily

As you know I currently own a home out of state.

A lot of my and my son's things are still there. Clothes, shoes, furniture, Toys, Pots & Pans, Cleaning Supplies, etc.

Well, one day my father agreed to go there and help me begin packing up some of my stuff.

He was in the mindset that we would just make sweeping decisions about whether we would keep things, and wouldn't get into the minutiae.

But this was my house! I was ALL about the minutiae. I wasn't just going to begin throwing stuff away just to to throw stuff away.

Sunday, August 4, 2013

Shoes For Larger Size Feet

As an FYI, I wear a size 12, yet I have well over 300 pairs of shoes.

No, they are not all from Payless.

So, where do I shop, you ask? Well that is what this post is all about..

This is an actual  picture of some of my shoes.
I couldn't get the picture wide enough to get them all.

I Am Not A Goth: Why Do I Love Studs and Spikes So Much?


Shoes: Report by Nordstom / Satchel: Steve by Steve Madden / Skirt: Domino Dollhouse /
Blouse (actually dress: via Nordstrom Rack / Spiked Collar: Domino Dollhouse

Eff Your Body Standards!!

Saturday, August 3, 2013

END OF MONTH WISH LIST - "If I Had Money" (July Edition)


GB - A Bit Baggy, But I'll Make It Work

This dress was cute, but as stated in the reviews of this dress on Gwynnie Bee, you can see that the top fits kind of baggy and low underneath the underarms.

Sneaker Wedges - Hmmm?

I am not really into the whole sneaker wedge thing, but I fell in love with these beauties when I saw them at Lane Bryant....*swoon* for $6 *double swoon*.

No, that is not a misprint, I got these babies for SIX DOLLARS!!!

They are normally $79, but I got them on a clearance on clearance and then had a coupon...

They encompass everything that is yummy in life:

Studs, Zippers, Wedges, Suede and Comfort.

Can't wait to rock these out!!

Thursday, August 1, 2013

Unafraid, Unapologetic, Yet Confused

I'm back..

After almost deleting my blog (again!!) and then setting the privacy settings to only certain readers, I have decided "F*ck it", I will do what I do when I do it!!